Tuesday, August 12
Saturday, August 9
To Whom It May Concern
Imagine, if you will, you're walking down a busy tree-lined street when out of nowhere someone grabs a random person out of the crowd and points a gun to their head right in front of you. The person falls to their knees and pleads for their life, visibly shaken with uttermost fear as the gun presses into their temple. Time seems to stop as everything freezes around you. You are standing there watching, praying, when BOOM! That someone pulls the trigger and shoots the person at point blank range - just for the pure joy of killing. Blood spatters all over the concrete, the person's spouse and children run to their aid; too late. The body lays lifeless on the ground before you. It all happened just a few feet away and you couldn't do a thing to stop it. The image is forever engraved in your mind.
Perhaps you're thinking, "How dare you make me picture such a thing?!" Or perhaps you've been so desensitized that the image produced no feeling in you at all. Either way, you're welcome. I just gave you an image for free that you pay to see at the box office. Does it make a difference that they're only "acting"? Does it make a difference that the people portrayed in these movies you watch are not real? Images of death are being emblazoned in your spirit by your own choosing and you think you will be able to stand in the day of adversity? You think you will be able to heal the sick and raise the dead?
"It's only a movie!" You fool. The enemy has you paying money to make others rich while he wastes away your faith. He has you spending your precious time sitting in front of a screen, soaking in his message that life has no value. BOOM! A gunshot to the head followed by a cleverly written line will even get you to laugh. BOOM! Death is entertaining...until it comes knocking at your door and you can't stop it because you're so full of it yourself.
I came to the realization tonight that I've been awakened. Soon you will be, too. You must be. Life depends on it.
Wake up.
Perhaps you're thinking, "How dare you make me picture such a thing?!" Or perhaps you've been so desensitized that the image produced no feeling in you at all. Either way, you're welcome. I just gave you an image for free that you pay to see at the box office. Does it make a difference that they're only "acting"? Does it make a difference that the people portrayed in these movies you watch are not real? Images of death are being emblazoned in your spirit by your own choosing and you think you will be able to stand in the day of adversity? You think you will be able to heal the sick and raise the dead?
"It's only a movie!" You fool. The enemy has you paying money to make others rich while he wastes away your faith. He has you spending your precious time sitting in front of a screen, soaking in his message that life has no value. BOOM! A gunshot to the head followed by a cleverly written line will even get you to laugh. BOOM! Death is entertaining...until it comes knocking at your door and you can't stop it because you're so full of it yourself.
I came to the realization tonight that I've been awakened. Soon you will be, too. You must be. Life depends on it.
Wake up.
Thursday, August 7
Obstacle Illusion - The Spiritual Man - Great Embarrassment
Obstacle Illusion
At the beginning of the week I was asked to pray on our daily nationwide intercessory prayer call. I mentioned that any lack or unmet need we feel is simply an "obstacle illusion", then quickly corrected myself and said optical. At the end of the call, a gentleman got on and said that I "thought" I misspoke, but really our problems truly are obstacle illusions. That got me thinking.
The spirit realm is like a hologram - a true 3-D image can only be seen when a beam of coherent light is shined on it. Yahweh is the Father of lights, and He resides in me. So whenever I walk into a situation, my light shines upon the unseen and produces 3-D images that I can see with my natural eye. Sometimes the images I can see are the result of what Yahweh and His angels are carrying out on earth. Sometimes the images I see are the result of what Satan and his cohorts are doing.
The realization has to set in that as long as I'm looking at the natural realm, whatever I see (good or bad) is only an illusion. How I choose to respond to said illusion makes all the difference in the world. If I see a bad circumstance or obstacle in my path, and know that it is an illusion, I can simply walk through it. If I see a blessing in the natural, I can choose to acknowledge it in the spirit realm where it actually is and reside there. It's an interesting concept.
The Spiritual Man
I've been reading "The Spiritual Man" by Watchman Nee. I've always heard the soul described in 3 parts - the mind, the will and the emotions. This book is the first time I've heard the spirit described in 3 parts - the conscience, the intuition and the fellowship with the spirit realm. That delineation makes living by the spirit a bit easier to understand. It's a 3 volume book and I'm looking forward to delving more into this revelation.
The Great Embarrassment
This morning on the prayer call I was asked to pray again...only this time the Holy Spirit didn't let me mince words. I ended up repenting to about 50 people from across the nation (including my pastor) of the root of bitterness I have held in my heart towards my husband. I was crying and the whole nine. While I was doing it, I felt my spirit soaring and knew I was doing the right thing. Immediately afterwards, however, I felt the most embarrassed I have pretty much ever felt in my entire life. I wanted to crawl out of my skin and run away. I wanted to hang up the phone, but realized it wouldn't make a difference at that point - I'd already spilled the beans.
I was begging for some sort of relief, and by Yah's grace and mercy, I got it. One by one, people started thanking me for my prayer and confessing their own battle with sin. One repented of the bitterness in his heart towards his wife, another repented of unforgiveness, another read a scriptural blessing for those that repent and repented of her own sin. I realized through this experience that even though we're supposed to die daily, my flesh is alive and well. My flesh needed the relief of hearing others acknowledge what I had said, and admitting that it helped them.
Why couldn't I just flow with the spirit and be satisfied in the fact that I obeyed His leading? Why couldn't I withstand the shame, as Yeshua did? I couldn't stand the embarrassment of being so transparent with the deepest recesses of my soul. I couldn't stand the thought of people around the country who know my husband, knowing that I'm bitter and resentful towards him. It was a horrible feeling, but I'm sure it doesn't come close to comparing with the persecution I will receive as I continue to walk more and more in lock step with Ruach Ha'Chodesh. Man, I have a long way to go. I praise Yah that He only gives us what we can handle...I sooooo needed to hear those other voices this morning. I look forward to the day when I won't need them.
At the beginning of the week I was asked to pray on our daily nationwide intercessory prayer call. I mentioned that any lack or unmet need we feel is simply an "obstacle illusion", then quickly corrected myself and said optical. At the end of the call, a gentleman got on and said that I "thought" I misspoke, but really our problems truly are obstacle illusions. That got me thinking.
The spirit realm is like a hologram - a true 3-D image can only be seen when a beam of coherent light is shined on it. Yahweh is the Father of lights, and He resides in me. So whenever I walk into a situation, my light shines upon the unseen and produces 3-D images that I can see with my natural eye. Sometimes the images I can see are the result of what Yahweh and His angels are carrying out on earth. Sometimes the images I see are the result of what Satan and his cohorts are doing.
The realization has to set in that as long as I'm looking at the natural realm, whatever I see (good or bad) is only an illusion. How I choose to respond to said illusion makes all the difference in the world. If I see a bad circumstance or obstacle in my path, and know that it is an illusion, I can simply walk through it. If I see a blessing in the natural, I can choose to acknowledge it in the spirit realm where it actually is and reside there. It's an interesting concept.
The Spiritual Man
I've been reading "The Spiritual Man" by Watchman Nee. I've always heard the soul described in 3 parts - the mind, the will and the emotions. This book is the first time I've heard the spirit described in 3 parts - the conscience, the intuition and the fellowship with the spirit realm. That delineation makes living by the spirit a bit easier to understand. It's a 3 volume book and I'm looking forward to delving more into this revelation.
The Great Embarrassment
This morning on the prayer call I was asked to pray again...only this time the Holy Spirit didn't let me mince words. I ended up repenting to about 50 people from across the nation (including my pastor) of the root of bitterness I have held in my heart towards my husband. I was crying and the whole nine. While I was doing it, I felt my spirit soaring and knew I was doing the right thing. Immediately afterwards, however, I felt the most embarrassed I have pretty much ever felt in my entire life. I wanted to crawl out of my skin and run away. I wanted to hang up the phone, but realized it wouldn't make a difference at that point - I'd already spilled the beans.
I was begging for some sort of relief, and by Yah's grace and mercy, I got it. One by one, people started thanking me for my prayer and confessing their own battle with sin. One repented of the bitterness in his heart towards his wife, another repented of unforgiveness, another read a scriptural blessing for those that repent and repented of her own sin. I realized through this experience that even though we're supposed to die daily, my flesh is alive and well. My flesh needed the relief of hearing others acknowledge what I had said, and admitting that it helped them.
Why couldn't I just flow with the spirit and be satisfied in the fact that I obeyed His leading? Why couldn't I withstand the shame, as Yeshua did? I couldn't stand the embarrassment of being so transparent with the deepest recesses of my soul. I couldn't stand the thought of people around the country who know my husband, knowing that I'm bitter and resentful towards him. It was a horrible feeling, but I'm sure it doesn't come close to comparing with the persecution I will receive as I continue to walk more and more in lock step with Ruach Ha'Chodesh. Man, I have a long way to go. I praise Yah that He only gives us what we can handle...I sooooo needed to hear those other voices this morning. I look forward to the day when I won't need them.
Saturday, August 2
Prophesy vs. Pancreatic Cancer
Last night I went to see a friend box in Brooklyn. While I was there, I got a phone call from my sister that my father has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I simply said OK and continued watching the fights. Amidst the rush of thoughts that flooded my mind upon hanging up, the overwhelming feeling was one of peace and trust.
A few minutes later I felt strongly to call and speak with my father directly. I felt that he was riddled with fear and I needed to address that. I stepped out of the arena, found an empty massage room in the gym and called my dad. My step mom picked up the phone and said my dad was sitting outside, really depressed.
The first thing he said was that he wasn't afraid to die. I asked him if he wanted to die. He said no. I said, "Because if you want to live, you can. It's up to you at this point. First of all, you need to get a 2nd and 3rd opinion. I know at least 4 people that have been diagnosed with cancer and it turned out to be a mistake. Don't just take what the doctor said and accept it. I really do not feel in my spirit that you have cancer." When I called him, I didn't know that statement was going to come out of my mouth. I just obeyed the first step and the rest flowed.
He said it all hit him by surprise because he went in for a routine check up and wasn't feeling any symptoms of anything. He was there, chillin', when the doctor came out and said, "Mr. Torres, your tests came back and you have pancreatic cancer. I'll bring out a translator in case you didn't understand what I said." The translator came out and my dad said, "I understand English! I know what he said!" They just told him to come back next week for his prescriptions for all kinds of crap. That's really messed up.
When I told my dad about all the misdiagnosing that has taken place, he told me of when he was 23 years old and they told him his pancreas was so far gone he needed emergency surgery. When the surgeon saw him, he said it was impossible for his pancreas to be that messed up...he would've had to have been having sex since before he was born. They ran some more tests and found it was just kidney stones. That happened when he was just 23 years old. I believe it is happening again and I was glad to hear my dad had experienced precisely what I was trying to explain to him.
I told him that the same prophetic gifting that is on his life is on my life, only I know where to channel my information from because I know where I got the gift from (whereas my dad was raised channeling all kinds of familiar spirits). I told him I know by the spirit that he does not have cancer. I proceeded to tell him by the spirit that he is not going to die until he is a little old man and has completed what Yahweh put him on this earth to do. When he is satisfied, he will go - no disease, accident or tragedy is going to take his life.
I told him not to go around telling everyone he has cancer, not to wallow in self pity, not to even let it come out of his mouth at all - because if he lets fear and depression set in and starts speaking those things, he could very well end up giving himself something he did not have in the first place. He just kept reiterating the shock he felt when he heard the news, because "cancer has no cure." I said, "Well, you don't have cancer - and that statement is not true. God made your body and he knows how to fix it. I know people who have gotten cured from AIDS, and they say that has no cure, either." He told me that his wife had fallen on him crying, saying the same thing - that God is in ultimate control and that they needed to go back to church and press into God more than ever before.
He thanked me for calling and giving him strength. He said he was going to do what I said and that he felt so much better. It meant a lot to me that my dad actually received my words and didn't get hurt by the fact that I didn't call to wallow with him. I love my father. I realized later that if my sister was still strong in the Lord, my phone call would have been confirmation to what he already heard from those closest to him. It hurt me a bit that in her spiritual state all she could do was call to give me the "bad news". I'll deal with her later.
In the meantime, my Yahweh will supply all of my father's needs according to His riches in glory by Moshiac Yeshua. The devil is a liar and a thief, he has been caught and I'm fully expecting a 7-fold return of health and well being for my entire family.
A few minutes later I felt strongly to call and speak with my father directly. I felt that he was riddled with fear and I needed to address that. I stepped out of the arena, found an empty massage room in the gym and called my dad. My step mom picked up the phone and said my dad was sitting outside, really depressed.
The first thing he said was that he wasn't afraid to die. I asked him if he wanted to die. He said no. I said, "Because if you want to live, you can. It's up to you at this point. First of all, you need to get a 2nd and 3rd opinion. I know at least 4 people that have been diagnosed with cancer and it turned out to be a mistake. Don't just take what the doctor said and accept it. I really do not feel in my spirit that you have cancer." When I called him, I didn't know that statement was going to come out of my mouth. I just obeyed the first step and the rest flowed.
He said it all hit him by surprise because he went in for a routine check up and wasn't feeling any symptoms of anything. He was there, chillin', when the doctor came out and said, "Mr. Torres, your tests came back and you have pancreatic cancer. I'll bring out a translator in case you didn't understand what I said." The translator came out and my dad said, "I understand English! I know what he said!" They just told him to come back next week for his prescriptions for all kinds of crap. That's really messed up.
When I told my dad about all the misdiagnosing that has taken place, he told me of when he was 23 years old and they told him his pancreas was so far gone he needed emergency surgery. When the surgeon saw him, he said it was impossible for his pancreas to be that messed up...he would've had to have been having sex since before he was born. They ran some more tests and found it was just kidney stones. That happened when he was just 23 years old. I believe it is happening again and I was glad to hear my dad had experienced precisely what I was trying to explain to him.
I told him that the same prophetic gifting that is on his life is on my life, only I know where to channel my information from because I know where I got the gift from (whereas my dad was raised channeling all kinds of familiar spirits). I told him I know by the spirit that he does not have cancer. I proceeded to tell him by the spirit that he is not going to die until he is a little old man and has completed what Yahweh put him on this earth to do. When he is satisfied, he will go - no disease, accident or tragedy is going to take his life.
I told him not to go around telling everyone he has cancer, not to wallow in self pity, not to even let it come out of his mouth at all - because if he lets fear and depression set in and starts speaking those things, he could very well end up giving himself something he did not have in the first place. He just kept reiterating the shock he felt when he heard the news, because "cancer has no cure." I said, "Well, you don't have cancer - and that statement is not true. God made your body and he knows how to fix it. I know people who have gotten cured from AIDS, and they say that has no cure, either." He told me that his wife had fallen on him crying, saying the same thing - that God is in ultimate control and that they needed to go back to church and press into God more than ever before.
He thanked me for calling and giving him strength. He said he was going to do what I said and that he felt so much better. It meant a lot to me that my dad actually received my words and didn't get hurt by the fact that I didn't call to wallow with him. I love my father. I realized later that if my sister was still strong in the Lord, my phone call would have been confirmation to what he already heard from those closest to him. It hurt me a bit that in her spiritual state all she could do was call to give me the "bad news". I'll deal with her later.
In the meantime, my Yahweh will supply all of my father's needs according to His riches in glory by Moshiac Yeshua. The devil is a liar and a thief, he has been caught and I'm fully expecting a 7-fold return of health and well being for my entire family.
Wednesday, July 30
Prophesy vs. Prosperity
Last night Dr. Jesse Duplantis came to teach at our church. As always, he was hilarious - but more so, his message set off sparks in me. I want to get the CD and listen to it over and over until it sinks in. My first thought after thinking that was, "Oh no...I'm off into a new subject again!!"
Here I am on this prophetic kick, practicing the voice of Yahweh and listening to prophetic teachings...and now I'm being pulled in the prosperity direction to do the same diligent study. I know what you're thinking, "It's all the Word, right? What difference does it make?" It makes a huge difference. It's like wanting to go to Law school and Med school at the same time.
You never see prophetic teachers and prosperity teachers running in the same circles. Yes, prophetic teachers speak about total life wellness and prosperity teachers speak about hearing the voice of Yah - in that sense it crosses over a bit. Yet neither one of the two really delves into the opposite subject in the sense that I am feeling pulled to do. It's a good thing I was able to resolve this seeming dichotomy in my spirit on the car drive home.
The answer is, I really do have to study both topics - as well as be a diligent student of my own pastor whose teachings are a complete course in themselves. I really do have to venture into the land of Rick Joyner, John Paul Jackson, Jim Driscoll, etc to get my prophetic training -AND- into the land of Jesse Duplantis, Kenneth Copeland, Bill Winston, Miles Monroe, etc to renew my mind for total life prosperity. I really do need to emmerse myself in the Hebrew and the apostolic, yoke destroying, burden removing messages of Pastor Dan Stratton. They are ALL essential to my life as a Christian, to live in the blessing and bring miracles to those around me. The only part of my schedule that will suffer are the many idle moments during the day where I'm tempted to do a myriad of mindless things. That's quite alright with me.
It turns out I'm not a pschytso after all...amen to that!
Here I am on this prophetic kick, practicing the voice of Yahweh and listening to prophetic teachings...and now I'm being pulled in the prosperity direction to do the same diligent study. I know what you're thinking, "It's all the Word, right? What difference does it make?" It makes a huge difference. It's like wanting to go to Law school and Med school at the same time.
You never see prophetic teachers and prosperity teachers running in the same circles. Yes, prophetic teachers speak about total life wellness and prosperity teachers speak about hearing the voice of Yah - in that sense it crosses over a bit. Yet neither one of the two really delves into the opposite subject in the sense that I am feeling pulled to do. It's a good thing I was able to resolve this seeming dichotomy in my spirit on the car drive home.
The answer is, I really do have to study both topics - as well as be a diligent student of my own pastor whose teachings are a complete course in themselves. I really do have to venture into the land of Rick Joyner, John Paul Jackson, Jim Driscoll, etc to get my prophetic training -AND- into the land of Jesse Duplantis, Kenneth Copeland, Bill Winston, Miles Monroe, etc to renew my mind for total life prosperity. I really do need to emmerse myself in the Hebrew and the apostolic, yoke destroying, burden removing messages of Pastor Dan Stratton. They are ALL essential to my life as a Christian, to live in the blessing and bring miracles to those around me. The only part of my schedule that will suffer are the many idle moments during the day where I'm tempted to do a myriad of mindless things. That's quite alright with me.
It turns out I'm not a pschytso after all...amen to that!
Tuesday, July 29
Look...Admit...Expect
Before I met my husband, I thought the prophetic was something that worked at YHWH's whim. I believed that YHWH could give me a word of knowledge for someone whenever He felt like it and it was then my decision as to whether or not I would deliver that word to the person (depending on if I believed I was hearing from YHWH...usually I didn't believe it). Upon meeting Pierre, who had been studying the prophetic for years and praying for a prophetic wife, I learned that it is a gift just like any other which can be improved by study and practice. Whoa.
That was 4 years ago. I've since let that knowledge slip, but am ready to take the bull by the horns. I downloaded a bunch of free podcasts from www.stirthewater.com with Jim Driscoll, as well as their linked sites. I've listened to one of them (Growing Your Faith to See, Part 1). This is what I learned:
The first step is to ask YHWH a question and then LOOK to see what He is showing you. Don't have predisposed expectations of what you're supposed to see, just look objectively at whatever He is showing you - even if it doesn't seem to answer your question.
The next step is to ADMIT what you're seeing. Do not dismiss it. Admitting what you see is in itself an act of faith. If you don't act in faith, you lose faith. Do not allow fear or trepidation to come in at this point; just write down what you are seeing/feeling/hearing without making any judgement on it.
The third step is to EXPECT understanding. When you get a revelation that you can't make heads or tails of, go back to YHWH with it. Believe by faith that what you have heard is correct, and expect the interpretation. YHWH wants to train you in hearing Him more clearly, but He can't do it if you are constantly questioning whether or not what you hear/see is valid. It is valid - now get the understanding.
Jim Driscoll gave a personal example of a time when for 21 days he went to YHWH every morning and asked Him what was going to happen that day. One day YHWH told him there was going to be a lot of change. Jim looked over his journal at the end of the day and realized nothing much had changed. He didn't say, "Oh well, I guess I missed it," (which is most likely what I would've done). He went to YHWH and said, "I asked you what was going to happen today and you said lots of change. I have seen no change today, so I'm taking the word back to you. I know I heard it." YHWH told him to put his hand in his left pocket. He felt a bunch of coins and realized he had gotten lots of change from several purchases he had made. The point wasn't that it was a big revelation he needed to receive ahead of time...the point was that YHWH was training him to hear. If Jim had dismissed that word, he wouldn't have heard YHWH tell him to check his pockets. He never would've known that he actually did hear YHWH correctly and would've missed out on an opportunity to grow in his faith.
I'll leave you with one last thought from the teaching. Your ability to hear from YHWH is like a vessel that receives revelation...and if you use it, it'll grow. The day is coming and quickly approaching when YHWH is going to outpour more faith than you can contain. Whether He overflows your thimble or your bucket is up to you. The more you can contain, the more you will operate in. Don't be left standing in front of the opened, gushing fire hydrant holding a thimble.
LOOK
ADMIT
EXPECT
That was 4 years ago. I've since let that knowledge slip, but am ready to take the bull by the horns. I downloaded a bunch of free podcasts from www.stirthewater.com with Jim Driscoll, as well as their linked sites. I've listened to one of them (Growing Your Faith to See, Part 1). This is what I learned:
The first step is to ask YHWH a question and then LOOK to see what He is showing you. Don't have predisposed expectations of what you're supposed to see, just look objectively at whatever He is showing you - even if it doesn't seem to answer your question.
The next step is to ADMIT what you're seeing. Do not dismiss it. Admitting what you see is in itself an act of faith. If you don't act in faith, you lose faith. Do not allow fear or trepidation to come in at this point; just write down what you are seeing/feeling/hearing without making any judgement on it.
The third step is to EXPECT understanding. When you get a revelation that you can't make heads or tails of, go back to YHWH with it. Believe by faith that what you have heard is correct, and expect the interpretation. YHWH wants to train you in hearing Him more clearly, but He can't do it if you are constantly questioning whether or not what you hear/see is valid. It is valid - now get the understanding.
Jim Driscoll gave a personal example of a time when for 21 days he went to YHWH every morning and asked Him what was going to happen that day. One day YHWH told him there was going to be a lot of change. Jim looked over his journal at the end of the day and realized nothing much had changed. He didn't say, "Oh well, I guess I missed it," (which is most likely what I would've done). He went to YHWH and said, "I asked you what was going to happen today and you said lots of change. I have seen no change today, so I'm taking the word back to you. I know I heard it." YHWH told him to put his hand in his left pocket. He felt a bunch of coins and realized he had gotten lots of change from several purchases he had made. The point wasn't that it was a big revelation he needed to receive ahead of time...the point was that YHWH was training him to hear. If Jim had dismissed that word, he wouldn't have heard YHWH tell him to check his pockets. He never would've known that he actually did hear YHWH correctly and would've missed out on an opportunity to grow in his faith.
I'll leave you with one last thought from the teaching. Your ability to hear from YHWH is like a vessel that receives revelation...and if you use it, it'll grow. The day is coming and quickly approaching when YHWH is going to outpour more faith than you can contain. Whether He overflows your thimble or your bucket is up to you. The more you can contain, the more you will operate in. Don't be left standing in front of the opened, gushing fire hydrant holding a thimble.
LOOK
ADMIT
EXPECT
Monday, July 28
Are you prophetic?
In a few short weeks, I will be heading down to NC for Morning Star's annual prophetic conference. As excited as I am about that, it's sort of bitter sweet in the sense that I have to come back home where I have no fellowship in that area. Pierre says that means I should start something. Surprise, surprise.
I was watching something on television last night (I know, bad Yadi) about psychic children. I could relate to a lot of things that were being said - the fact that you often feel all kinds of deep emotions for no reason at all because you are picking up on things going on around you (my problem is that I identify with every emotion I feel instead of being objective enough to know the feeling just might not be originating from me), the fact that "psychic abilities" tend to run in families (most of the family on my father's side is paranormal), the feeling of being an outsider while growing up (I overcompensated for this by becoming President of everything and keeping the "weird stuff" for home). It was a good reminder to me of what it's like being a child with paranormal abilities; a reminder that was needed since my children will most likely experience a lot of the things that I did (minus the séances).
The good news is that my children will never have to wander into the dark side of things because they will always know where their giftings come from and who they are meant to glorify. I realized today that every creative tool I've ever used has drawn tremendous emotional responses from people at one time or another, saved and unsaved a like. Whether it has been drawing, painting, dancing, singing, public speaking, and even photography, I believe the link that ties it all together is the prophetic. I believe the gift I need to be giving myself to more than any other is the prophetic - and everything else will flow from that. I believe He wants to use the myriad of creative talents He gave me to speak His message to different people.
I definitely see now that Point of Creation has a lot more to do with the prophetic than it has to do with the creative arts. I see a common thread of it in all the girls Yahweh has chosen to be a part of POC. In all my commitments to honing my different creative gifts, I've never truly made a long lasting commitment to honing my prophetic gifts. My priorities were off. It's like I've been on a long journey that has brought me right back to where I started - the primal, rudimentary essence of who Yahweh created me to be.
I'm feeling so pschytso right now...like every week I'm on a new path. Bear with me, I'm a work in progress and I'm not afraid to let you know. lol. If this post speaks to you in any way, please comment. I need to know where the other "psychic" children are.
I was watching something on television last night (I know, bad Yadi) about psychic children. I could relate to a lot of things that were being said - the fact that you often feel all kinds of deep emotions for no reason at all because you are picking up on things going on around you (my problem is that I identify with every emotion I feel instead of being objective enough to know the feeling just might not be originating from me), the fact that "psychic abilities" tend to run in families (most of the family on my father's side is paranormal), the feeling of being an outsider while growing up (I overcompensated for this by becoming President of everything and keeping the "weird stuff" for home). It was a good reminder to me of what it's like being a child with paranormal abilities; a reminder that was needed since my children will most likely experience a lot of the things that I did (minus the séances).
The good news is that my children will never have to wander into the dark side of things because they will always know where their giftings come from and who they are meant to glorify. I realized today that every creative tool I've ever used has drawn tremendous emotional responses from people at one time or another, saved and unsaved a like. Whether it has been drawing, painting, dancing, singing, public speaking, and even photography, I believe the link that ties it all together is the prophetic. I believe the gift I need to be giving myself to more than any other is the prophetic - and everything else will flow from that. I believe He wants to use the myriad of creative talents He gave me to speak His message to different people.
I definitely see now that Point of Creation has a lot more to do with the prophetic than it has to do with the creative arts. I see a common thread of it in all the girls Yahweh has chosen to be a part of POC. In all my commitments to honing my different creative gifts, I've never truly made a long lasting commitment to honing my prophetic gifts. My priorities were off. It's like I've been on a long journey that has brought me right back to where I started - the primal, rudimentary essence of who Yahweh created me to be.
I'm feeling so pschytso right now...like every week I'm on a new path. Bear with me, I'm a work in progress and I'm not afraid to let you know. lol. If this post speaks to you in any way, please comment. I need to know where the other "psychic" children are.
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