Humbled

I had an excellent time with Satoya and her "Trash the Dress" shoot yesterday...that is until the dreaded "err 02" showed up on my camera and we had to stop taking pictures before her dress was actually trashed. It was a memory card error and I need a new one; it totally stopped recording the pictures. I'm glad I noticed before we trashed her dress. That would've sucked. But I digress.

The real excellent time for me was the ride up to her home when we got to discuss her job. I had been feeling a bit melancholic about my pregnancy, like how could I possibly love another child as much as I love my first kinda thing. That all went away while listening to Satoya speak of the children she works with in the group home. After hearing the conditions those children live under - the fact that most of them are given drugs to deal with their issues instead of real life training, the poor foods that they consume, the false hope they have of going home after their parents have signed them away to the state, the foster parents who take them in just to receive moneys from the government...it all broke my heart and made me realize again what an honor and privilege it is to raise children under the admonition of Yahweh. It gave me that love for my unborn child, knowing that he or she is one less child who will have to suffer at the hands of bad choices made by adults. I may not be able to save all the children in all the shelters around the world, but I can certainly raise mine with true Love. I am blessed.

Beyond that I am sobered and humbled by the vision for our school that Yahweh bestowed on us (POC). Maybe the privileged children I had been envisioning as students in our school are actually the little ones society has tossed away. Maybe they don't pay tuition after all (how could they?). What if it is an orphanage and a school all in one? Whatever Yahweh has called us to do, we are fully equipped and provided for. We can do all things through Moshiac Yeshua who gives us strength.