Is this what the Father sees?

It's been 3 days of non-stop leadership summit and BOY do I have TONS to write about that. Yet even as I write this, my husband is passing by saying, "Uh-Uh...no blogging!" I guess I take too long writing my thoughts. I will come back to my post about the summit. For now I have a shorty (I hope).

Picked up Joshua from his grandma's house. Longest I've been away from him (2 nights). He looked different. Puffy, puking, exhausted, yet smiling. Overfed, under rested, yet happy. I found out he drank coffee, consumed a ton of dairy and white flour and basically gorged himself for 2 days. I wasn't happy about how he looked, how he sounded, even his spirit seemed off. Call me crazy. I was grateful that my mother-in-law took a few days off from work to watch him so I could go to the summit. But I wasn't happy with the results. Selfish? No, just jealous.

Is this what the Father feels when He looks at us after we've had a flesh fest? Does he look at us all puffy from eating the wrong foods, exhausted from lack of rest and over work, completely happy as we feed every appetite and think, "What has happened to my beautiful creation?" Does he wonder why we let ourselves get to such states? Is He jealous over His creation in a way that makes Him sorrowful to see us living less than our best?

It made me understand that Yahweh isn't angry when we miss the mark, He just looks at us and longs for the day when we "get it".

I immediately started calculating in my mind how long it would take to get my Joshua back. One week back on his schedule of regular sleep, healthy food and creative play should do it. Does Yahweh calculate how long it will take for us to shed the effects of indulgence to finally reflect His Son?

Man, I need sleep. I don't even think that made sense to my own self. Glad I wrote it down, though. lol. G'night.