It's about that time

We're coming up on the end of the year - all that buzz is in the air. New Beginnings. I can't help but reflect on 2007 when I see my little boy wobbling around the house like I was wobbling this time last year at 9 months pregnant. The growth that takes place in a child in the course of a year is amazing to me. When the bible says to be childlike, I automatically think of certain attributes: trusting, joyful, exuberant, teachable. I didn't realize until watching my son this past year that it also means ever growing. I veer from being childlike when I stop changing and evolving; when I settle into the current situation and just talk about going higher like it's some distant fantasy. For a child, it's not a discussion. It's not even a choice. Anyway, I digress.

This year was great. Spiritually I grew in my understanding of faith. It's not just a confession or something I try to convince myself of. It's something I expect and act on. Physically I experienced natural childbirth and realized my true capabilities as a woman. Pain is no joke. Mentally I overdosed on baby books to my own detriment and found out that none of that stuff holds a candle to the wisdom of the Holy Spirit (duh). Emotionally I got through the three longest months of my life and still don't understand why those first few weeks were so excruciatingly hard. Hormones? My personality? It's gotta be easier next time. I also saw that whenever I was dead set against something in my self-righteous mind (ie; "I will NEVER give my child formula!"), circumstances forced me to do those very things. Yet when I had my heart set on something in humility, it came to pass just as I desired. Socially I became a mom and found myself feeling like a teenage mother out of wedlock every time I walked down the street with a stroller. I guess some race issues got into my psyche and didn't surface until mom status. That was weird. Financially I learned a little more about what I'm worth and am looking forward to making some substantial money in 2008.

I wish those few sentences could really do justice to my year, but they're like a grain of sand on the beach of 2007. I don't want to let another life changing year go by without documenting it. I am in awe of this year. I am satisfied, and ready for more. My goal for 2008 is to be more childlike than I've ever been:)

PS: For posterity I need to write that right now my husband is in MA on his second round of interviews for a new job with higher pay and more job satisfaction (no, we're not moving). He has grown into a more confident man this year in so many areas. He's not willing to settle anymore, either. I'm so proud of him.