Updates

It's been a while since I've written - but in my defense (lol) I've been journaling other places (myspace, youtube, my food blog, cafemom, etc). My raw food diet went well and now I'm fasting. To read more about that, visit my food journal here.

This Saturday marks the first day of my favorite month - my birthday month :) I will be turning 30 and plan to do it with a vengeance. I want to dance, laugh, love, and truly experience my family and friends that are close by. I'm looking forward to that!

My photo studio is up and running. I'm building my portfolio so I can get my business out to the public. My son is not exactly the best model. He won't smile for anything, and often he runs right up to the camera or out the door. The few good shots I get of him are worth it, though. It's a good thing I have other models coming in soon.

I've been waking up at 5 or 6 in the morning to pray and exercise, and going to bed at 9 or 9:30pm. What a difference! I got into the habit of staying up until 11 or later and getting out of bed around 11 in the morning (after having Joshua roll around with me in bed from 7:30ish in the morning until that time). Now I rise up early and am not startled out of my sleep by a screaming child. It's niiiiice.

Yep, that's about it. Read my food blog to find out more about what's going on with me for the next 2 weeks (or more if I'm so inclined). Toodles.

WARNING: This blog contains RAW subjects

Around 8 years ago at this very time of year, I became a vegan overnight. I went from a junk food junkie on the standard American diet to only consuming organic fruits and vegetables, nuts and whole grains. Suddenly I went from being known as "Mikey" (reference to an old LIFE cereal commercial) to being known as the health nut. I lost over 40 lbs, went from a size 13-14 to a size 4, and could be seen running around my block for fun. It was delightful. The problem was that it was a whirlwind romance that brought me into that lifestyle. Not too long after that romance ended, so did my vegan ways.

I added dairy products, then eggs. I added fish, white flour, and refined sugars. From this past holiday to this past weekend I added poultry and (GASP) red meat. The pendulum officially swung too far in the other direction.

I've known for years, even from my days as a vegan, that the ideal diet for me is 100% raw. I've been fighting it, avoiding it, ignoring it. In my mind, Raw Foodists are weird, extremists, flakes, fanatics, sickly looking and overly obsessed with talking about food. They're anti-social, self absorbed and always seem to be on some crazy spiritual journey that leads them into the woods to hug trees. Yet I can't escape the truth - eating raw is the healthiest choice I could possibly make.

So here I am, 8 years later, making another decision overnight on grace. I started yesterday and I'm feeling the same grace now that I felt 8 years ago when I became vegan. Maybe the reason I didn't have grace to do all the diet stuff I tried between then and now is because I wasn't supposed to be doing all those other things. Going vegan then was right. Going raw now is right.

I take solace in the fact that I'm rooted and grounded in Yeshua. That will keep my newly freed spirit and clear mind from seeking a zen garden in the Alps. There are so many other things I'm concerned about, but none of those things really matter. I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Finally.

Carrot juice, anyone?

I know it's early but...

I just completed the Valentine's Day graphics. Get them at www.pointofcreation.org and use them on your blogs :) Thanks for your support!

Open Heaven

An open Heaven is tangible. If you have an open Heaven, you know it. In the 11 years I've been walking with Yahweh, I can pinpoint specific times in my life when I knew I was under an open Heaven. Why only a few times? Man, I wish I knew. The problem is that I've touched the sphere of open Heaven, then allowed daily muck to envelope me again.

In comparison to an open Heaven, regular life feels like a dark cloud is hanging over you. Yet it's like living with really bad back pain that you get healed of (so I've heard). You don't know how much pain you were actually in until it's gone. An open Heaven feels like fresh air. It feels like an easy yoke and light burden. It feels like anything at all is possible and the sky is no limit. Ha-ha...it feels like a Life Without Limits.

My husband came home from a job interview today. Our Pastor gave him a prophesy about not getting comfortable where he is, so he's been going on several interviews. Last month he did a series of interviews with a company that loved him so much they took 3 hours to deliberate on whether they should hire him or another man. When they finally decided on the other man, they had directors fly in from around the country to meet and create a new position just for Pierre...and it still didn't work out. It was bizarre that they wanted to hire him so badly, and even more bizarre that they didn't take him. They ended up referring him to the company he went on an interview with today.

I've never seen my husband so excited about a company. His interview apparently went well. That doesn't move me. What moved me is to hear the things that came out of his mouth on this interview. Pierre talked about Pastor Dan, PVN, being a Christian. He talked about his future goals personally and professionally. When they asked him what he desired to earn, he told them a number that was way higher than anything I've ever heard him say before. It was like everything he was saying on this interview was coming straight out of his spirit man. That's how I know this job is his. Heaven opened up today.

He told them about how I'm a graphics designer working from home. They said they need a graphics designer and that maybe I could work for them from home as well. On the way back, Pierre stopped at our favorite Thai restaurant to get some dinner. He told the owner that I want to have a studio on Palisades Ave and she said she wants to go into business with me. As my husband is talking, I see my photography studio. It is part of my Christian School for the Performing Arts. There is a day care that my mother-in-law runs, and a salon for toddlers run by the owner of the Thai restaurant. It's right in Englewood. I see it clearly, and it's so real. It's like Fame. lol. I see Iraida teaching in that school. I see Satoya, Rachael, Neubela, Kim and Tarsha in that school. I see the students - young, talented, funny, loving, care-free and on fire for Yahweh. I see the waiting list to get into the school. I see my office. I see the auditorium where my son is the lead in the play (because he's good, not because he's my son). lol.

I want to stay here, in this open Heaven. I don't want to go back to the dark cloud where the smallest thing seems impossible. I'm holding tight to Yahweh, clinging to that vine for dear life. This is life. I won't go back.

Smile :)

I heard a song on the radio today on the way to my son's pediatrician that just made me smile. It was like a rhema song. lol. This is Agape. This is Ahava. I got it. Here are the lyrics:

"What If"
By Jadon Lavik

Verse 1
What if I climbed that mountain, what if I swam to that shore
What if every battle was victorious...
Then would you love me more?
Would you love me more?

What if I were everyone's first choice, what if I went farther than before
What if I stood high above the rest...
Then would you love me more?
Would you love me more?

Chorus
You say I belong to you
Apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you
I'm in awe of why you do
Why you do, why you do,
I'm in awe of you

Verse 2
What if I ignored the hand that fed me, what if I forgot to confess
What if I stumbled down that mountain...
Then would you love me less?
Lord would you love me less?

What if I were everyone's last choice, what if I mixed in with the rest
What if I failed what I passed before...
Then would you love me less?
Lord would you, would you love me less?

Chorus

Bridge
What have I done to deserve your son sent to die for me
What can I give, I want to live, give me eyes to see
In a world that keeps changin' there's one thing that I know is true
Your love is stayin' there's nothing else I'll hold onto

Chorus


You can hear the song on my myspace page (until I hear another song that moves me, so hurry. lol):CLICK HERE TO HEAR SONG